Overflowing...

Something in me remains so stirred. I cannot shake nor quench this fire that rises and this flame that grows within me. I called to God for it, I asked Him to grant me this, and here it is. The burden of it can be an overwhelming feeling, but amidst it, an unexplainable peace that flows in and around me keeping me. I feel the heaviness of what I carry, yet I am still able to carry it. I walk humbled by it, and also at times frustrated that I cannot control it or remove it when I feel I cannot bear it. Still, something in me wants it to grow more. I am unable to explain it in the depth of which I know it inside. I am unable to fully and wholly describe outwardly this inward working. "Like a Fire Shut Up In My Bones!" I scream out!!! Like a fire, like a fire, shut up in my bones! I am awakened to You Oh Lord, to Your spirit which abides in me. A melancholy-state is upon my countenance for I cannot put on the mask of falseness. I must struggle and push THROUGH what I feel, as if I am reaching inside a hot fire to grab the beautiful jeweled stone in the middle of it...you must see what I will pull out. This fire is burning me, but yet I am not burnt. This fire is consuming me, yet I stand still, filled with joy unspeakable and an everlasting and sustaining peace that permeates all darkness. YET, I battle the balance of up and down. How can I explain my heart, but to say that Lord, You have set me ablaze with the power of Your word, the beauty of Your presence surrounds me, Your glory encompasses about me like a shield that cannot be broken past. I know who I am in You for you have given me a knowing, even if I do not yet fully know or see, but I know because You have set me a part and called me Your own. I know because You have loved me and by Your love I am captivated. My life is confirmed in You. I know because You have spoken it to me in Your word, so lovely. You have given me life and You have set me upon a Rock that is my foundation. I know because You are I AM and I am because YOU ARE! In Jesus Name I pray thanks to You. Father, Thank You for ALL and EVERYTHING. Let my words and my actions be pleasing to You Father and let me remain covered in Your precious blood, spilled for me!

I love You God! I love You with ALL of my heart! Forever I am Yours and You are mine! In Jesus precious and mighty name, AMEN and So BE It!!!

~Christina Carroll~