Forward...Backward....Side to Side.....This way, That way......Slippity Slide....Up then Down....Round and Round....Back again to go Forward once more....
An interesting, but inevitable cycle of the journeys of life. You cannot escape it so there is no use wasting precious energy to fight the cycle when there are plenty of other things you could be putting your energy towards fighting. Ha! I cannot believe I haven't written since November...this was the first line to one of many times I have tried...(emphasizing TRIED) to write something here. This blog feels like a distant memory I have allowed to fade away. It makes me mad, but you can't force a season to operate outside of its season. (Not really!)
Who cares...every time I have tried to explain it, like a couple of hours ago...SOMETHING STOPS ME! So here is another opportunity...snatching this one up real quick!
It is 2011...January is just about over and it will soon be June...yeah! Every moment I turn around its approaching another year. Why is time on SPEED? Lol! I have so many things I want to share, so many revelations God has been and still is downloading into me or I guess the proper technical term would be uploading into me....I guess I would be downloading from Him...haha...you get it though! I just know that once I start writing it, SOMETHING will happen again. I just want a dang post up....it's the starting that is most challenging. Once you start you can begin....is this a hidden simple and profound statement I just stumbled upon? Hmmm...maybe. I thought all hope was lost and my blog would fade away into the dream from whence it came when I saw a COMMENT on one of my previous postings. It drew me in like the perfect bait and I re-read the old post then the comment. Ahhhhhh...there it was....the opportunity...the On-switch...the thing I needed tonight. It was a great revelation God had given me that sparked something in my spirit. I am in the place of looking back, but not like Lot's wife. God is having me EVALUATE some things along many different journeys. Not all of the journeys are mine, but He is wanting me to SEE some things. Everyday He shows me something else after having either walked it or studying the walk of another. There has been a seemingly permanent writers block in me and I am not sure why other than to know that Reflection creates Room for Revelation. If my mind is overcrowded I cannot receive. You know its interesting because we ask God, "why are You not speaking to me or answering me!!!" We get so frustrated and question everything. We question ourselves...are we doing something wrong? We question God...why aren't we being answered? We question everything and sometimes everyone around us. The answer is possibly we are too stuffed to receive.....INBOX FULL!!!! Have you ever called anyone only to find you could not leave them a message because their inbox was too full.....then the call ends and you are left with no way to leave that message. I have thought to myself...will this person be checking their mail soon? How long? Can I ask YOU...when was the last time YOU checked your inbox? Maybe God is trying to speak to you but you are too consumed by whatever else to even look and see that your inbox is full......just all mad that you haven't heard back from the person....from God...when all along it was You! Ouch!
Well...I don't want to push my limits with this first STARTER writing...I hope someone out there hasn't forgotten about me and my Written Life...lol! I am still here....if you are still listening.
Until the next time...we are now moving from start to begin....
Loves and Hugs,
Christina
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