I don't know about you but I will often find myself stuck in cycles. I think I have mentioned this before. It becomes a seemingly never ending cycle of really great and not really great....super encouraged, stirred up, hungry, and then feeling far from it all, far from God as if He all of a sudden is past my reach. What is this? Why must I face this cycle time and time again? It drives me to hate my flesh. I hate its barriers, its lazy nature, its self-medicating, self-indulging, selfish ways. I just want to be far from it but how can I when I am trapped inside of it. This exterior that seems to be the one last thing that keeps me from the fullness of God's presence. It's like I can only have so much of Him while inside my flesh and I can't wait to have all of Him. I imagine it must be this way for a child inside a mothers womb, hearing her heartbeat, hearing her voice, longing to see her face and feel her arms wrap around you. No wonder they kick so much...hehehe! We are like a child in the womb waiting to be birthed into eternity with our Abba Daddy!!!
I am sitting here listening and watching some Hillsong worship and my spirit is again stirred as it was today in service. I have come to realize how slick the enemy is....I fall for this trap many times and probably walk in unnecessary weaknesses that are more like a false weakness but become my reality until I realize the strength and power of God that lay inside of me and had been all along. Wake up self! Wake up people! Wake up and see and hear and know that HE IS GOD!!
I will often get into a sort of funk and I find it hard to press into His presence and worship Him when it's just me and Him. I don't have much time for this so I press forward because my job is never ending...there is not time for this word called "down" to linger long. I cannot be fake, I cannot present unworthiness to my Lord and to His people...Worship is my life!!! Worship is what blasts away the exteriors that form around the presence of God. The more we worship the more the "walls come down!"
I have found myself not turning on worship music because I felt I should be able to enter in without other's help...after all it's my job...it's what I do....I lead worship...but does that make me un-leadable? Hmm....oh Lord I never want to become that but in my desire to please You and show You I am Yours, I have pulled away and begun to rely on myself....then BOOOOOM....I am weakened.....
Turn on the Worship...get yourself there wherever you are and allow the Holy Spirit to be stirred in you. You are not weak when you search for the stirring.....you are hungry for God's presence....it will propel you to move forward, hear His voice more clearly, escape the boundaries of your flesh to allow Him to abide. Never Never Never forsake the worship. Yes pair it with the Word, Yes pair it with Prayer, but never forsake the worship. It is the key to opening you up, softening the hardness of your flesh and allowing God's presence to flow FREELY within you. THAT is Freedom! THAT is Worship!
Worship.......it is more important than you know!!!
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