Learning To Trust...

Learning to trust God in all things is one of the most difficult things I have ever had to face. It's a simple biblical principal and key to walking with Him successfully. Not a worldly success that defines how someone views my relationship with Him, but a spiritual success with an outcome that speaks... "My servant in whom I'm well pleased". When all else fails around me I have one goal with one objective: Trust in the Lord and Follow His statutes; in that He will be pleased with me.

I came across a message recently that spoke of desiring God's WILL more than His POWER. I would not put myself in the latter category however it's quite possible I have unknowingly done so. To pursue God's Will above all else means to Trust in Him regardless of what I see or feel. Emotions are such a black thick tar sometimes against all reason. Emotions become the ruler of man more than anything else I know of. I have been easily overtaken by the flipped switch of emotion, easily set off track from the course, reacted outside of myself over some of the dumbest things! How can you pursue God's will if you are the one getting in the way with your out of control emotions...I want it my way, that way looks better, this is too hard I'll just do it that way instead. Have you ever thought any of those things? Well I have! It's not something I want to blurt out loud..."Hey people, I have trust issues, with God!" No I can't say that seems like a comfortable thing to say, but it's truer than I would like it to be.

Oh how I want to easily trust God. Oh how I want to stop allowing life to overwhelm me. Oh how I want to really and truthfully lean completely on God and rest in Him like He beckons us to. Ugh! Why can't I just be a perfect daughter to my Father? Have you ever felt like such a bad child? I went through my teenage years knowingly being rebellious. I just didn't want to do what my parent wanted me to. I wanted to do what I wanted..."leave me be and let me do my thang!" If my parent had done that, I'm quite sure I would be dead. Oh how God has delivered me from the hands of death because of my stubbornness and distrust in His Will.

Sorry, emotion just hit pretty hard at this moment. Just the awareness of my ugly flaws...I don't like this ugly person who hides in me. She comes out during times of struggle. I hate her as a matter of fact. I hate the ugliness of my flesh that rises up against me...but wait what about that scripture that says, "for we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities and spiritual wickedness in high places." I am in the wrong battle!!! I'm in the wrong battle! Instead of fighting against myself and my own will, I need to be warring against these principalities that are trying to come in and distract me from pursuing my purpose and reaching the promise.

Oh Lord, I know not why I keep ending up here, but what I do know is that YOUR LOVE IS GREATER, YOUR LOVE IS STRONGER, YOUR POWER IS MIGHTIER, AND IF I TRUST YOU AND DESIRE YOUR WILL, EVERYTHING ELSE WILL LINE UP AND I WILL REACH THE PROMISE!

If that is your hearts cry, join in prayer with me.
Father, right now we ask that You teach us to rest in You. We pray that when challenges are set before us, we look to You first, that we are not swayed by emotion and our own will, but walk by the moving of the Holy Spirit towards and in Your Will. You are God and we are not! You alone are God! Forgive me for ever trying to take over that role from You. Forgive me for allowing my flesh to be the stronger. Help me Lord, because without You I Cannot! Without You God, I cannot and am not! I need You every day, every hour, every moment. Cleanse and purify my heart continuously that I may Be pleasing unto You. If I do not please you in areas show me so I can change. Thank You Father for loving me and patiently guiding me through life to accomplish Your purposes. I pray that be my hearts desire. You know and see my heart more than I even know it. You God are my heart! I look to You! I love You! In Jesus Name I bind any strongholds and ploys of the enemy against me in my life, against my family, against my ministry. You said in Your word God that No Weapons formed against me would prosper. I know that even though I see the arrows coming at me that I can bank on Your word and trust that You will never fail me, Your words never fail! I pray that angels would be released to make a border of protection against me, my family, my house, my friends and family, my church, my kids school, everywhere we go and everywhere we are. You are God Only over all things and no enemy, no device formed, no curse spoken, no evil can beset that which Your hands are over. Help me God to walk in boldness! I will not walk in fear which causes me to be overwhelmed. I will only trust in You with ALL of me. Cover me Lord, for You are my covering. Protect me Lord, for You are my protection. Counsel me Oh Lord, for You are my counselor. Teach me Lord, for You are my teacher. I am the head and not the tail, above and not beneath. I am a Conquerer through You Jesus Christ who strengthens me. All things are possible through You God. Let me not ever ever ever forget who You are and what You have done and what You are doing! You are Master, You are Lord, You are Savior, You are King, YOU ARE GOD!!! In Jesus Mighty Name...Amen and So Be it!


Loves and Hugs!