November 23rd, 2010
So, in lieu of the Thanksgiving spirit/holiday I figured I should share my Thankfulness. I mean everyone else is doing it so why not right? Lol! As I brought my kids to school this morning, parked the car, embraced preparedly the biting cold, waved goodbye as they walked into the building, and made my way back to the truck hurriedly so I could blast the heat….(deep breath)…lol….I looked amidst the rows of vehicles and glanced with a smile over at my truck. I immediately thought, “I’m so thankful to have a truck!” For so long I have desired to own a truck or larger vehicle of some sorts and for so long I seemed doomed to ride in a car forever. There is this little image in my head, ever since Cedric started kindergarten way back when, and I’m beginning to think it will just never be my life. I always wanted to live in a house, the same house that was within eyes view and walking distance to my children’s school. I wanted the whole neighborhood feel, with my kids having school buddies, you know this picture! I was the super young mom, living in an apartment, with only 1 vehicle and it was a car. What accomplishments have I made in my life at this point…(this was 7years ago). I felt inadequate but my success was measured differently. I loved God, was going to church, was still married to the same man I got pregnant by at 16, I mean no one from back in my school day thought we would still be together at that time, and I had baby number 2 who I managed to successfully breastfeed, make my own baby food, cloth diapered for a time, receive the title Mother Earth by my fam because I had learned so much, coming out of an awful depression, changing life around!!! These were my successes!!! They didn’t look like the worlds, I didn’t go to college and get a degree, I didn’t have a big beautiful house, fancy furniture, a luxury vehicle…my dream of being the “go-to/soccer mom” type hadn’t kicked in. The years rolled on…Jaeana came into the picture, Camron started pre-school then Kindergarten. One neighborhood, not in eyes view of the school but in walking distance seemed to be my answer. I was friends with the neighbors, the kids played outside together, we were renting but planning to buy it in the next year, then CRUSH!!!!! We get a foreclosure and auction notice on our garage and that is that! The owners took our money and didn’t pay the rent with it and now were out of luck…it’s been one house after the next. First a grand 6+bedroom with 3 masters, 5 bathrooms, a mini-putt putt course and pool in the backyard…lovely just very expensive and very large. I love large and life was seeming well off with Jerry’s business but then life changed yet again and downsizing was in our future, and now here we are, the end of 2010 in an apartment…poopshnickles!!!!!
HOWEVER….all is not lost…THANKfulness is still to be had. I have a TRUCK…kind of like I have a dream….hehehe! I have a truck and I made it into the club of “mom’s/family’s with trucks”…yeah it’s a club. Haha! I looked proudly at the truck I waited for and I was just THANKFUL….God knows my desires and although He doesn’t hit everyone of them, He hits the important ones on His time…the ones that are according to His will and that life is better than any dream of what I think I want in life. His ways are not my ways, they are Better and for that, for Him, I AM THANKFUL!!!!
This is my story, this is my song…..well one of them…hahaha!
This has been a message brought to you by ChristinaCafe….live life, live life for Him!! J
HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVE!!
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