Prayer Journal Entry:

Prayer Journal Entry:

"Dear Lord, give me a fresh rain of Your Holy Presence that I might breathe You in. Fill me and surround me with more of You, for I am captivated by Your beauty! Encompass about me with the tenderness of Your everlasting love and gird about me with the power of Your strength. Ignite me Oh Lord, for I seek a touch from You. Stir up my spirit that I might be awakened to the nearness of Your Holy presence. Oh Lord fill me, fill me up with more of You. I desire to be close to You, walking with You, meeting with You, being with You my King! I pray that my desire for You would remain greater than the desires of my flesh. I pray that my relationship with You would increase and blossom and grow into the beauty of what You intended when You created me. Here I am Lord, humbly I come before You. Cleanse me that I may be pure before Your throne. I do not want to come unto You defiled by the filth of my flesh but I desire to come before You with a pure heart of worship so that I may truly worship You in Spirit and in truth as You have called me to. Help me to change all bad habits, addictions of my flesh, negative thoughts, and words of unrighteous judgement. I want to continually be aligned with Your Will and Your Way, being always in Your order so that Your perfect Will might be established in my life and the fullness of Your presence can be manifested in me. I will go for You, I will follow after You, I will continually seek more of You in my life. Change me oh God, transform me into Your image, and baptize me with Your All Consuming Fire. I will burn for You like a flaming torch that will not be put out because it is lit with the All Consuming Fire of Your Holy Spirit. Come be the flame upon my heart. Come burn in me, come burn in me, come burn in me, all consuming fire, a heart that burns in me, purify me Oh God, Oh Abba, I stand before You in Awe of You. Holy, Holy, Holy are You Lord God Almighty who was, and is, and is to come!Give me the strength and the wisdom and the discernment to see through the eyes of Your compassion with conviction...allow me to be open. Open my eyes and my ears that I might not be blinded any longer. Remove the scales, remove the cover, remove the shell, remove the dirt, remove the block...I am free in You!!! I am free in You Father....help me to see, I do not want to be blind any longer, I do not want to be blinded by my flesh...show me Your eyes God, show me Your heart God, teach me to walk in Your perfect will...I will surrender to You. I will push past the harsh exterior of this world that has stuck onto me like sludge. Wash it off God, make me clean again! I do not want to be hindered by my flesh but I wan to enter in to that secret place with You, where You abide in me and dwell in me. I am captivated by You God, Fascinate my heart. Make me alert to Your Spirit within me and to Your word before me. I dwell in the secret place of the Most High God. I come unto You humble, bowing before Your throne, laying all of meat Your feet. Here I am Lord, All Poured Out to You!!! I LOVE YOU LORD!!!! I LOVE YOU LORD!!!!!! I LOVE YOU LORD!!! OH ABBA, HOW I LOVE YOU!!!

Thank You Daddy! In Jesus Name Cover me as I sleep and give me strength as You refresh me anew for this next moment..."

Your loving daughter,
Christina

Baby #4...

Wow!!!! It has been almost a whole month since I have blogged and well, that's just ridiculous!!! My days and weeks all of June have been filled with moving and trying to get settled in the new casa, but my life seems to be finding a balance of possible normalcy! Ahh Finally!!! :)

So...here I am...Yay! Let's play catch up!

Hmmm, well Jerry and I took our hand at faux painting an accent wall in our casa. That was interesting...took 3 tries because someone (the nameless person...ahhgem...Jerry) was allowing his perfectionism issues to block the freedom of artistic ability from being portrayed...but work finished and it's nice! All credit goes to him. I'm happy with it. It really is about finding a technique that you like. I am so much of a perfectionist too so I had to stay out of the way so we wouldn't eat each other alive...haha!

Alright, what is next? I have been writing music which has been great! I am working on some projects and this is a new journey that I am thrilled about being on. God is bringing me down new avenues and paths very much unknown to me but I like it! I am not sure what it all will look like in the end, but I know that anything God pours into me or out of me will be amazing because it will be Him.

A kinda annoying thing I have been dealing with is weight...you know how when for some reason you can't seem to shake a few nagging pounds? Gah! I mean really body...I have been desiring to work out but still haven't quite settled into a good routine to make time...I must though because I need to feel better physically...I love the energy that comes with a consistent work out routine. It's time! I don't want my jeans being a little too snug because I can't control my love of things I probably shouldn't have! LOL!

Ok, lastly...I saved this for last because I am excited about this...new edition has been added to my family. I thought we were done but apparently more room needs to be made...so introducing BABY #4.....

My most amazing and wonderful Pastors have blessed me with my very own beautiful Guitar! (More pictures, really cool ones, are coming soon!) It's time for me to learn to play and take my musical gift to another level. Ahh the door has been opened...funny thing is I also have developed a fascination and desire for the bass so I will be adding to my family again...and don't forget about some keys...once I get more familiar with my strings I will be reunited again to the keys which I began to learn so long ago...
Did you know I used to play the piano for 1 1/2 yr and the violin for 3 1/2 yrs.? Maybe I told you before but anyways this new journey will ROCK!!!

That's all for now folks...until next time...which will be much sooner and more consistent...laters - alligators! :)

Christina

Un-stick Me...

So, I have been hearing people say the common phrase, "I feel stuck!" quite a bit which let's me know it's a corporate feeling and God is stirring something up. I know we have been on the brink of something Huge! But then the funny and probably at this point obvious thing happened...dun dun dun!!!!....yep, I feel STUCK now too! Everyone has there own "stuck" issues, but they all lead into the bigger picture...the feeling on the inside that it creates. 

My "stuck issue" is a Huge, Flashy, Look This Way kind of signal to get my attention that a new move is upon us, or me. Why, Oh Why, don't I just press in and pray right away instead of give room to the rolling tumbleweed of emotions!!! I think my children must feel it too because they have been acting odd or just oddly emotional. Gah...on the verge of tears over weird things...many reasons why...but very reflective! Reflective over the things in my life I haven't changed or can't change...just looking at all my flaws and thinking, "Gosh Christina, you know you can do these things, stop being lazy, what's wrong with you, work out like you want to, get some energy already, fatigue doesn't belong here, press in more, read your word more, pray more, write those songs hiding somewhere down deep, write those books wanting to come out....aaaahhhhhhh!" Sometimes the thought of all these things overwhelms me into a frozen shock, and all I can do is do nothing and focus on other things. It's in these moments where I begin to feel that dang "press" again consuming me. "Wrong consuming Christina", I tell myself! Be consumed with God's Fire not the emotions of the flesh. 

Alright, deep breath in and out! So where do I go from here? How do I change where I am at to get to where I want to be or where I should be? By the should part I just mean, the place God says for me to be, in His presence, focusing on Him, not Me...Grr, then it's the "Gah I'm here again" realization...this looks so familiar, like a cycle that cannot be broken. Am I doomed to repeat this always? No! I must break free from the illusion of this wheel I seemed to be trapped in. Why do I allow myself to believe the illusion? Why do YOU allow yourself to believe the illusion? 

We are not stuck, or trapped, or confined to a cage being pressed in by the unchangeable circumstances around us. God says in Joshua 1:9  "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage. Do not be afraid, neither be dismayed. For Jehovah your God is with you in all places where you go." Why should I worry and fret and feel stuck when the Almighty is with me in ALL PLACES...how then can I be stuck? 1Chronicles 28:20  "And David said to Solomon his son, Be strong and of good courage, and do it. Do not fear, nor be dismayed, for Jehovah God, my God, will be with you. He will not fail you nor leave you until you have finished all the work for the service of the house of Jehovah." Open your eyes Christina! Open and see the truth!!! Psalms 119:18  "Open my eyes, so that I may behold wonderful things out of Your Law". You are safe in the arms of the Lord your God who has covered you and filled you with peace. 1Corinthians 15:2  "by which you also are being kept safe, if you hold fast the word which I preached to you, unless you believed in vain." Be strong in the power of His might as He is the one directing your path! Isaiah 40:26  "Lift up your eyes on high, and behold, who has created these, who brings out their host by number? He calls them all by names by the greatness of His might, for He is strong in power; not one is lacking."  Do not fear saith the Lord, that you would not succeed in all that I have given you, for all I have given you will prosper at the touch of your hands because I have first touched it with My hand! Trust in Me, saith the Lord. Trust in Me with all your heart, your mind, and your soul, and watch My Power manifest in your life and the lives of those around you, for I am with you saith the Lord of hosts! I am with you and I have never forsaken you, neither have I left your side. But you need only to turn around and look at me with your eyes. Gaze upon Me, upon My Glory and let My Fire reign down upon you and consume you so that you may burn for Me and for My people. Put to work that which I have set before thee! Put to work with your hands all that I have given unto you and do not anymore be idle for to be weary in well doing is failure in my sight but to be mighty through the power of your works is to have an effect on My people and for My kingdom. You can do this My child! You are strong in Me! Lean on Me and not your flesh and you will be filled with success in your house and in Mine all your days on the earth!

In Jesus name, Amen...thank You God for that outpouring of You word, poured into me. I feel refreshed and awakened! I will not give into vain imaginations but cast them down because they are not my own. I will align my thoughts with Yours, that Your Perfect Will might be perfected and manifested in me!

AaahhhhhEphesians 6:10  "Finally, my brothers, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might." 

An amazing prayer from an Spurgeon Daily Devotional: 

"Dear Father, I humbly bow before You, confessing that I am so often like the children of Israel. I confidently promise to live in obedience to Your will. Then, I quickly stray from Your path and indulge my own will. Thank You for Your forgiving grace. Yet, I earnestly cry out for more. I need Your transforming grace to renew my inner man unto increasing obedience to You, through Jesus, my Lord, Amen."