Sunday, February 12, 2012

Opened Eyes...Opened Heart

My heart is filled with an outpouring of Compassion. I love when the Lord allows me to see through His eyes, His heart. Oh precious and beautiful it is. He sees us, His people so different than we look and see each other. If I was able to grab everyone and hug them with the love I have flowing out of me right now I would...

In these moments of Compassion that God allows me to experience is causes me to stand in-between time. I see people who have crossed my path, people whose lives I have touched, people whose lives I have yet to impact. I see these people and I begin to see them as God sees them...the beauty they hold as His creations. I am filled with this love I cannot contain or explain, but I want to just grab them and tell them how special they are and all that God wants to do with them. Would they hear me? Would they listen? Simultaneously, I am also seeing myself. I see the areas in my life where God wants to bring increase in my gifts and accomplish the purpose He has for me. He begins to renew my faith in His hand on my life. The fears, struggles, distractions, doubts, negativity all fades away like a distant voice far away and barely heard. Instead I hear, see, and feel Him. He is taking me by the hand to each of these areas where He wants to take me to the next level. Any other time I am completely overwhelmed by the all that it will take to achieve these goals I am working towards, yet in these moments those overwhelming feelings are so far behind me and I am able to just see.

A glance, a moment of an Opened Heart! God really does Love me!!!! He really does Love His people. If only we would hearken to His voice more often, we would begin to walk more upright, more confident, and more bold in who He has called us to be and what He has called us to do.

Tonight...I KNOW that I CAN through Jesus Christ. All these things set before me right now....are IN HIS HANDS. I put my Trust in Him and walk into His arms...I am Safe in Him. Your Will Father, be done!!! In Jesus Name, Amen!



Show Me Your Glory...

I'm thirsty.
I'm dry.
I'm hungry.
I'm longing.

Oh Lord, would You just come down into this place and fill me, fill this atmosphere with You. Lord, I need You, I want You, I gotta have You. Let Your Everlasting Beauty surround me. Surround me Oh Lord. Surround me Oh Lord. Fill me up with more of You. Surround me Oh Lord. Surround me Oh Lord. Fill me up with more of You.

That is truly the cry of my heart. I long for Him, I long for His presence and for some reason I keep trying to go these spurts without Him. I don't even do it intentionally. I am just going about my business, working, cleaning, daily duties, and then the realization hits and the emotions begin to swell within me....JESUS, I NEED YOU! I begin to experience this insatiable desire, a craving, I NEED Him, I NEED Him, I NEED Him! I was working on my computer while also doing some baking and I had originally been watching some shows on Hulu (it helps my brain remain calm sometimes while thinking so hard...haha). Yet, I felt this void growing within me all of a sudden. I needed to experience the presence of God. I needed to feel Him and I immediately begin to feel far from Him. I turned on some worship and it was if my arms were opening wider while I was also running closer to this thing in front of me...It was like a magnetized force was pulling me forward towards Him....He was the "thing" I was sensing. Do you ever feel like certain songs come at that right moment, like, "God, are You doing that for me?" ......that's what was happening with me and with each song the intensity grew, my spirit stirred...

I have had so much on my mind the past week and I am trying to avoid coming "unhinged" while completing some of these tasks in front of me. I am walking in an uncomfortable territory, an unknown territory, a place in which trust is the only way I am able to see my foot take a step. I'm a little afraid by the NEW, but at the same time I am full of confidence, a knowing, that I am on the right path. I'm pushing down and out all the thoughts that are trying to plague my mind and my emotions, that I am not able to accomplish all these things that God is and has been stirring within me since He first created me. He put things within me and I have uncovered some of them, yet now it's as though the field just bloomed and it's Harvest Time!! I'm scared that I might fail, that I might get too overwhelmed, that I........I don't even really know......Flip side, I am oddly brave and finding myself taking these giant leaps before turning around and realizing what I have just done.

All I can stop and think is, MORE LORD! Give me More!!! Show me Your Glory Father. Rain down Your Presence all over me, fill me, surround me, reign Lord, reign over me. I'm stepping my feet out of the boat and walking toward MY GOD out on the water. I know He will keep me. I know I am safe even though my senses my be experiencing a different scenario. Lol! I'm stepping into the Glory Cloud and I'm not afraid...I'm Ready!

Show me Your Glory Lord!!!